Our relationship started on 01 January 2018. And now is has come to an end. I feel very sad but relieved at the same time. For I had found a boyfriend to love but to be honest, I did not feel much of his love, yet being showered with sarcasm ever so often. Hence, I am relieved with this decision as I can be myself once again. I pray that he will stay healthy and happy always. Dear God, please protect him and give him a good life. I pray also that I have made the right decision on this matter.
This message was sent through WeChat and it's a reminder for myself:
hi we have been very quiet i feel that our situation is very negative over the last few weeks, i have felt that we have drifted very far apart
i feel that you are not happy with me i feel that you are always not happy with me i feel that i can never live up to what you expect from me
so i feel that it is best for us to be just friends i hope you can find the partner that will love you the way that you want i know that i am too committed to my family. i admit it and I have told you that from the beginning
i'm sad and very disturbed by this decision but i feel that it is best for both of us promise me that you will look after yourself and find your own happiness I am sorry to have hurt you and disappoint you. i hope you can forgive me but thank you for your love during this time that we are together you will always have a special place in my heart
To that he replied:
Xie xie ni (Thank you)
Wo men hai shi pen you (We are still friends)
Ru guo hai xiang gen wo zuo pen you (If you still want to be friends)
Hen kai xing ren si ni (Very happy to have known you)
Gan xie ze xie re zi de pei ban (Thank you for your companionship during these times)
I feel so sad reading his reply. I thought it was easy but it's not. My heart aches but I will not turn back. Many things in my life has happened over the last 2 years and I will not turn back. I have to be stronger and i pray that God will bless his life and look after him for me.
