For My Final Journey

I have finally decided that I want to get my final resting place.  Talked it over with mum and she is agreeable to the idea... although I'm only 49 this year.

After surveyed the available 'spaces' during All Souls' Day, I made a decision to purchase the one closest to mum and dad.

Although happy that I'd made up my mind on this matter, I feel terribly sad about it.  It's like, there's no meaning to my life and it is all about waiting for that day to come.  My 'space' is for a single person and I guess that's how it's going to be i.e. me being single until the day I go and meet my creator.

Looking at everyone around me, the 'new' hopes are all so much younger.  I can't see how they will find me attractive and want to be with me for the rest of my life ... unless they are looking at my assets and properties.  Sigh........ I just don't see such future.  :(

Will I be ok?