If only ...

Rafik somewhat changed after he went back to his hometown for a week (3-11 Aug) and spent time with his partner.  What i thought i had achieved is fading fast.   He would hardly reply my msgs ... and he starts to give me hot and cold treatment.  One moment he is really happy that i am missing him soo very much ... another moment, he wants us just to be friends and that i should stop calling him babe. :(

But when he got back on 11 Aug 2013, we went out ... i bought him one red rose, a bottle of Body Shop perfume and a dinner.  Wanted him to know how much he meant to me and that i love him.  He was very happy with all that was given to him.  Had a really nice night.  

Went out again on 13 Aug 2013.  Watched 'Percy Jackson - Sea of Monsters' and on the way back, he grabbed me and took me by surprise as i grabbed his hard on.  

If only ........

I wonder if he loves me some.  I told him that i love him dearly.  

Time flies .... and he will be leaving soon.  :(

Will see how things go but with the hot and cold treatment, i will need to be ready to let go of this chapter.

If only ........