When i arrived to pick Nick up for lunch, he kept smiling when he saw me. :) I kept smiling too cos i was just estatic again. This time it's because his blood tests result is clear and that's all that matters.
I really want his love. If that's going to happen. :( On Tuesday night when we kissed... it was just all so magical for me. I wonder if he felt the same or anything at all. I wish to kiss him again. Yet emails and sms that I have sent bears no reply. He reads them but not replying them or telling me how he feels.
Will i ever be loved by Nick?
Dear Lord, I am thankful to you for giving Nick a good blood test result. I know I am happy about it. And I'm sure you do know that i wish for his love for me Lord. I won't dare to ask for more from your Lord. I'm sure you know how my hearts feels for Nick. I pray that you will show some mercy on me and let me have some love from Nick. A little love from him goes a long way for me Lord. :(
I pray to you Lord. Amen.
Thursday, 31 May 2012
Wednesday, 30 May 2012
He Is WELL And SAFE
I sms him to drive safe and told him that im there for him always .... at 11.32am
Nick replied shortly after saying that all is good and that he has just left the hospital.
WOWOWOWOWOWOWOOWOWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im sooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY that i have weak knees just now.
Rang him and told him how happy i am. kisssssssssssssssssssss
Thank you Lord. Thank you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Amen!!!
Will meet him for lunch. I love you sooooooooooooo MUCH babe.
YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You Will Be Alright Babe Because I Love You
Took Nick out for a simple dinner last night (Wednesday 30 May 2012).
He was chatty and all but he seemed distant. Dropped him home after an hour at 10.15pm. He said he wanted to watch some TV.
Asked him if he wanted me to accompany him to go to get his blood test result today and he said he wants to go by himself. That somewhat made me feel bad. Just the night before, he wanted me to go. Now he said he wants to go alone. :( Hence i feel the distance again.
Rang him when i got home, talked a little ... then again at 11.30pm but i think he had already gone to sleep because he didn't answer.
Woke him up today at 8.30am. Asked if i could take him to the hospital but he still said no. :( Woke him up again at 8.55, 9.00am. I miss u so very much babe ... told him that in my sms to him when i woke up this morning.
I feel sooooooooooooooooooooo weak again today. I think I'm mentally tired again cos im worried for my babe Nick. HUGssssssssssssssssssssss
Posted a picture on his FB wall also. Didn't know what to write, so just said " :) xx "... A while later, he 'Like' it. :) Hugs babe... I love you!
He will go after his teaching at 11.30am and it's 11.08am now. I'm feeling so restless. I pray and PRAY that he will be alright. "I pray to you Lord, for my babe Nick (said his full name in my prayers) to be safe. I love him so so much and i'm willing for you to take some of my years away so that he can be safe Lord. Lord hear my prayers for my babe Nick ... Amen"
He was chatty and all but he seemed distant. Dropped him home after an hour at 10.15pm. He said he wanted to watch some TV.
Asked him if he wanted me to accompany him to go to get his blood test result today and he said he wants to go by himself. That somewhat made me feel bad. Just the night before, he wanted me to go. Now he said he wants to go alone. :( Hence i feel the distance again.
Rang him when i got home, talked a little ... then again at 11.30pm but i think he had already gone to sleep because he didn't answer.
Woke him up today at 8.30am. Asked if i could take him to the hospital but he still said no. :( Woke him up again at 8.55, 9.00am. I miss u so very much babe ... told him that in my sms to him when i woke up this morning.
I feel sooooooooooooooooooooo weak again today. I think I'm mentally tired again cos im worried for my babe Nick. HUGssssssssssssssssssssss
Posted a picture on his FB wall also. Didn't know what to write, so just said " :) xx "... A while later, he 'Like' it. :) Hugs babe... I love you!
He will go after his teaching at 11.30am and it's 11.08am now. I'm feeling so restless. I pray and PRAY that he will be alright. "I pray to you Lord, for my babe Nick (said his full name in my prayers) to be safe. I love him so so much and i'm willing for you to take some of my years away so that he can be safe Lord. Lord hear my prayers for my babe Nick ... Amen"
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
The Kisssssss
Last night... Tuesday 29 May 2012 ... was just heavenly!!
I have finally kissed Nick on the lips without having any issues. :) Can't express the magnitude of my happiness. I was just estatic!!!
I have loved Nick for sooooooooooo long and the kiss is what i have longed for all these while. I don't know what to make of it but i will just bask in the happiness for now.
At 4.25am this morning, i sent him an sms which read
'Babe. It's just me :). I mean it when i say i love you babe. xxxooo And yes i was being silly bout de sunshine comparison thingy but im serious bout you being the air that i breathe. :) I shud go back to sleep. :) hope u r sleeping soundly babe. Kiss u babe.'
I love you babe.....
I have finally kissed Nick on the lips without having any issues. :) Can't express the magnitude of my happiness. I was just estatic!!!
I have loved Nick for sooooooooooo long and the kiss is what i have longed for all these while. I don't know what to make of it but i will just bask in the happiness for now.
At 4.25am this morning, i sent him an sms which read
'Babe. It's just me :). I mean it when i say i love you babe. xxxooo And yes i was being silly bout de sunshine comparison thingy but im serious bout you being the air that i breathe. :) I shud go back to sleep. :) hope u r sleeping soundly babe. Kiss u babe.'
I love you babe.....
Better Again
My mood swings is just SHOCKING.
I sms Nick a few times ... then rang him just before 1pm. But all with no reply or answer. Then at 1.30pm he sms me .. that he was teaching and that he was on the way out for lunch and to get his poster printed. Wrote with smileys too. :)
So sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy that he wrote. I love you babe.
Wow!!! 3.22pm... Nick sms me back ... and asked if i'm still free tonight. So we are going out tonight. :) Asked me also if i want to go see a play on 23rd June. :) I may go ... see how it goes tonight when i see him. :) I'm just thrilled to hear from him the whole time when we exchanged sms. kissssssssssssssss
He also want to go buy shirts. So will choose for him and dress him up. yay!!! I love being with him. :)
Happy time. :)
p/s I'm glad that I told him that I love him in my sms early this morning. :) and that he is still chatty with me. Kissssssssssssssssssss.........
I sms Nick a few times ... then rang him just before 1pm. But all with no reply or answer. Then at 1.30pm he sms me .. that he was teaching and that he was on the way out for lunch and to get his poster printed. Wrote with smileys too. :)
So sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy that he wrote. I love you babe.
Wow!!! 3.22pm... Nick sms me back ... and asked if i'm still free tonight. So we are going out tonight. :) Asked me also if i want to go see a play on 23rd June. :) I may go ... see how it goes tonight when i see him. :) I'm just thrilled to hear from him the whole time when we exchanged sms. kissssssssssssssss
He also want to go buy shirts. So will choose for him and dress him up. yay!!! I love being with him. :)
Happy time. :)
p/s I'm glad that I told him that I love him in my sms early this morning. :) and that he is still chatty with me. Kissssssssssssssssssss.........
Monday, 28 May 2012
Mentally and Physically Tired
It's Tuesday morning 29 May 2012
Woke up a couple of times and was missing Nick terribly. First time was just after 3.30am. Typed 'I love you babe' but fell asleep again. Woke up again at 4.48am and realised that i have not sent the sms ... I wanted to take the 'i love you' part away but i couldn't. So i wrote 'I love you babe. Hope you r havin a good sleep. Hugs n kisses for u babe.'
Slept after 1am last night cos i came home late and wanted to do my knitting for Nick. I am not sure if the scarf is too narrow. :( But i wanted it to be just right and not too big. I really really hope it will be nice and he will like it.
So now i'm very sleepy and my body feels like it's going to collapse. :( Just when i was about to wake him this morning, i realised that there was a miss call from him last night. I was calling him and he din answer. And he DID call me back and i did not realise that. :( Made me guilty but i am soooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY.
So i woke him at 8.30, 8.45, 8.55, 9.00am. Apologised for not realising he called me last night. And asked him if I could see him again tonight. He said 'maybe' :( I just miss him soooooooooooooo much. :( Really don't to turn him off. I love you babe.
Else i will sleep really early tonight cos i m sooooo tired.
Whatever it is, let it be known that i am CRAZILY in love with Nick. Hugsssssssssss.............
So help me God.
p/s I pray that his blood test results will be all good and NEGATIVE. He gotta be well Lord. Please!!!!!!
Woke up a couple of times and was missing Nick terribly. First time was just after 3.30am. Typed 'I love you babe' but fell asleep again. Woke up again at 4.48am and realised that i have not sent the sms ... I wanted to take the 'i love you' part away but i couldn't. So i wrote 'I love you babe. Hope you r havin a good sleep. Hugs n kisses for u babe.'
Slept after 1am last night cos i came home late and wanted to do my knitting for Nick. I am not sure if the scarf is too narrow. :( But i wanted it to be just right and not too big. I really really hope it will be nice and he will like it.
So now i'm very sleepy and my body feels like it's going to collapse. :( Just when i was about to wake him this morning, i realised that there was a miss call from him last night. I was calling him and he din answer. And he DID call me back and i did not realise that. :( Made me guilty but i am soooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY.
So i woke him at 8.30, 8.45, 8.55, 9.00am. Apologised for not realising he called me last night. And asked him if I could see him again tonight. He said 'maybe' :( I just miss him soooooooooooooo much. :( Really don't to turn him off. I love you babe.
Else i will sleep really early tonight cos i m sooooo tired.
Whatever it is, let it be known that i am CRAZILY in love with Nick. Hugsssssssssss.............
So help me God.
p/s I pray that his blood test results will be all good and NEGATIVE. He gotta be well Lord. Please!!!!!!
The Air That I Breathe
Last night (Sunday) I went out with Nick. He showed me the present that his gf got him. A pen which is also a handy drive. He said it's his going away present.
I told him that I didn't get him a going away present and he corrected me 'Aren't you knitting me a scarf?' :P
I just smiled in appreciation that he remembered. But I told him that I don't want that to be a going away present cos i don want him to leave. :( I squeezed his hand and wish i can just hold and kiss him then.
He ever told me that his gf mum said that he is very handsome and that he is like her sunshine or sunrise. Something like that. I told him that day (ie. when we were having coffee at Starbucks on Friday after work) that i have said that before too ... he said he did not remember the part about the sunshine. LOL. I told him that 'You Make My Day' and he smiled :). But last night, I told him that 'You Are The Air That I Breathe'. And i kissed him on his cheeks and he smiled. :) I love u so very much babe. Kissssssssssss........
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