Thursday, 31 May 2012

Happy Day To Remember

When i arrived to pick Nick up for lunch, he kept smiling when he saw me.  :)  I kept smiling too cos i was just estatic again.  This time it's because his blood tests result is clear and that's all that matters.

I really want his love.  If that's going to happen.  :(  On Tuesday night when we kissed... it was just all so magical for me.  I wonder if he felt the same or anything at all.  I wish to kiss him again.  Yet emails and sms that I have sent bears no reply.  He reads them but not replying them or telling me how he feels.

Will i ever be loved by Nick?

Dear Lord, I am thankful to you for giving Nick a good blood test result.  I know I am happy about it.  And I'm sure you do know that i wish for his love for me Lord.  I won't dare to ask for more from your Lord.  I'm sure you know how my hearts feels for Nick.  I pray that you will show some mercy on me and let me have some love from Nick.  A little love from him goes a long way for me Lord.  :(

I pray to you Lord.  Amen.

Wednesday, 30 May 2012

He Is WELL And SAFE

I sms him to drive safe and told him that im there for him always .... at 11.32am

Nick replied shortly after saying that all is good and that he has just left the hospital.  

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOOWOWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Im sooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY that i have weak knees just now.  

Rang him and told him how happy i am.  kisssssssssssssssssssss

Thank you Lord.  Thank you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amen!!!

Will meet him for lunch.  I love you sooooooooooooo MUCH babe.

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


You Will Be Alright Babe Because I Love You

Took Nick out for a simple dinner last night (Wednesday 30 May 2012).

He was chatty and all but he seemed distant.  Dropped him home after an hour at 10.15pm.  He said he wanted to watch some TV.

Asked him if he wanted me to accompany him to go to get his blood test result today and he said he wants to go by himself.  That somewhat made me feel bad.  Just the night before, he wanted me to go.  Now he said he wants to go alone.  :(  Hence i feel the distance again.

Rang him when i got home, talked a little ... then again at 11.30pm  but i think he had already gone to sleep because he didn't answer.

Woke him up today at 8.30am. Asked if i could take him to the hospital but he still said no. :(  Woke him up again at 8.55, 9.00am.  I miss u so very much babe ... told him that in my sms to him when i woke up this morning.

I feel sooooooooooooooooooooo weak again today.  I think I'm mentally tired again cos im worried for my babe Nick.  HUGssssssssssssssssssssss

Posted a picture on his FB wall also.  Didn't know what to write, so just said " :) xx "... A while later, he 'Like' it.  :)  Hugs babe... I love you!


He will go after his teaching at 11.30am and it's 11.08am now.  I'm feeling so restless.  I pray and PRAY that he will be alright.  "I pray to you Lord, for my babe Nick (said his full name in my prayers) to be safe. I love him so so much and i'm willing for you to take some of my years away so that he can be safe Lord.  Lord hear my prayers for my babe Nick ... Amen"

Tuesday, 29 May 2012

The Kisssssss

Last night... Tuesday 29 May 2012 ... was just heavenly!!

I have finally kissed Nick on the lips without having any issues.  :)  Can't express the magnitude of my happiness.  I was just estatic!!!

I have loved Nick for sooooooooooo long and the kiss is what i have longed for all these while.  I don't know what to make of it but i will just bask in the happiness for now.

At 4.25am this morning, i sent him an sms which read

'Babe.  It's just me :).  I mean it when i say i love you babe.  xxxooo And yes i was being silly bout de sunshine comparison thingy but im serious bout you being the air that i breathe.  :) I shud go back to sleep. :) hope u r sleeping soundly babe.  Kiss u babe.'

I love you babe.....

Better Again

My mood swings is just SHOCKING.

I sms Nick a few times ... then rang him just before 1pm.  But all with no reply or answer.  Then at 1.30pm he sms me .. that he was teaching and that he was on the way out for lunch and to get his poster printed.  Wrote with smileys too.  :)

So sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy that he wrote.  I love you babe.

Wow!!! 3.22pm... Nick sms me back ... and asked if i'm still free tonight.  So we are going out tonight.  :)  Asked me also if i want to go see a play on 23rd June.  :)  I may go ... see how it goes tonight when i see him.  :)  I'm just thrilled to hear from him the whole time when we exchanged sms.  kissssssssssssssss

He also want to go buy shirts.  So will choose for him and dress him up. yay!!!  I love being with him.  :)

Happy time.  :)

p/s I'm glad that I told him that I love him in my sms early this morning. :)  and that he is still chatty with me.  Kissssssssssssssssssss.........


Monday, 28 May 2012

Mentally and Physically Tired

It's Tuesday morning 29 May 2012

Woke up a couple of times and was missing Nick terribly.  First time was just after 3.30am.  Typed 'I love you babe' but fell asleep again.  Woke up again at 4.48am and realised that i have not sent the sms ...  I wanted to take the 'i love you' part away but i couldn't.  So i wrote 'I love you babe. Hope you r havin a good sleep.  Hugs n kisses for u babe.'

Slept after 1am last night cos i came home late and wanted to do my knitting for Nick.  I am not sure if the scarf is too narrow.  :(  But i wanted it to be just right and not too big.  I really really hope it will be nice and he will like it.

So now i'm very sleepy and my body feels like it's going to collapse.  :(  Just when i was about to wake him this morning, i realised that there was a miss call from him last night.  I was calling him and he din answer.  And he DID call me back and i did not realise that.  :(  Made me guilty but i am soooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY.

So i woke him at 8.30, 8.45, 8.55, 9.00am.  Apologised for not realising he called me last night.  And asked him if I could see him again tonight.  He said 'maybe'  :(  I just miss him soooooooooooooo much.  :(   Really don't to turn him off.  I love you babe.

Else i will sleep really early tonight cos i m sooooo tired.

Whatever it is, let it be known that i am CRAZILY in love with Nick.  Hugsssssssssss.............

So help me God.

p/s I pray that his blood test results will be all good and NEGATIVE.  He gotta be well Lord.  Please!!!!!!



The Air That I Breathe

Last night (Sunday) I went out with Nick.  He showed me the present that his gf got him.  A pen which is also a handy drive.  He said it's his going away present.

I told him that I didn't get him a going away present and he corrected me 'Aren't you knitting me a scarf?'  :P
I just smiled in appreciation that he remembered.  But I told him that I don't want that to be a going away present cos i don want him to leave. :(    I squeezed his hand and wish i can just hold and kiss him then.

He ever told me that his gf mum said that he is very handsome and that he is like her sunshine or sunrise.  Something like that.  I told him that day (ie. when we were having coffee at Starbucks on Friday after work) that i have said that before too ... he said he did not remember the part about the sunshine.  LOL.  I told him that 'You Make My Day' and he smiled  :).  But last night, I told him that 'You Are The Air That I Breathe'.  And i kissed him on his cheeks and he smiled.  :)  I love u so very much babe.  Kissssssssssss........

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

Restless Morning

I'm feeling VERY restless as today is my babe's blood test day.  Woke him at 7.30am but he was up already.  I don't know what i can do ... i wish i can.  So am just praying for him.  I love you babe.

At the same time, the thought of him letting that man f**k him and cum in him maybe? Just breaks my heart ... i don't know who is was ... i guess it's better for me not to know.  :(

whatever it is, it's not healthy for me to think of him with others.  I love him too much and don't want to be hurt by these thoughts.

All i want is for him to be safe and healthy.

Saw some activities in FB now... so i sent him an sms but he didn't reply.  Not too sure if he is still at the hospital or he just don want to talk to me. :(

But will meet him for lunch later.

I need to feel better.

LORD Hear My Prayers

Dear LORD

I pray to you for my babe Nick (full name mentioned in my prayer).  I pray that he will be healthy and safe ALWAYS.  He will be going for his HIV blood test tomorrow and I really pray to you to have the results to be negative.  I really REALLY want him to be safe.  I LOVE him so SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

Even if he will never ever love me back, I pray that you will keep him safe for me dear god.  Please PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you LORD.

Amen.

FUCKING FUCKING FUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mad with management rigtht now.  What is the worst foul language that i can swear with???  AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, 22 May 2012

The Storm Made Me Cry

I called Nick at lunch time.  I forced myself to sound normal.... and he sounded just normal too.

Asked if he wants to go out tonight ... i really want to see him.  He said maybe as he wants to go to the gym.  Maybe??? It's a yes or a no.  What maybe??  That means he is not really interested to go out with me.  :(

i feel so sad.  :(

I will need to stay strong.   Feel like crying.

And the storm today is making me feel sad too.

Will see how it goes tonight.  If he says no, then i will have to accept it.

Monday, 21 May 2012

Wishing On My Lucky Star

How i wish my lucky star will shine on me everyday of my life.

How i wish i don know what SADNESS is
How i wish i don know what JEALOUSY is
How i wish i don know what ANGER is

How i wish the only thing i know is LOVE
How i wish the only thing i know is HAPPINESS
How i wish the only thing i know is LAUGHTER
How i wish the only thing i know is JOY
How i wish the only thing i know is TO GIVE

I need God's guidance and his power to make me a better person .. and to be able to stay happy always.
... cos im so in love with Nick and i don feel loved by him

'please don be negative!!'

'please stay happy!'



A Bit Off Somehow

Nick seemed a bit off since Sunday night.  He said that he was in a bad mood when i went to pick him up that night.  He blamed it on his headache.  But i think there was something else bothering him.  We went for dinner, then i invited him over to watch movie at my house.  He accepted and was very normal.  I think all is fine.  

I feel that it may be my fault because on Sunday morning i sent him this sms

"Babe what r u dreaming of?  Can i come in n share your dreams?  Good or bad i wish to be w u babe.  Love u lots babe.  Xxxooo"

That night after the movie, i drove him home and hugged him.  After i got home, i called him but he din pick up.  

Monday morning i gave him his usual wake up calls.  Everything seemed fine ... and i asked him out for lunch and he is fine with it too.  During lunch, he was ok ... quite chatty and had a few laughs.  I still think it's fine.

But since the evening and night ... i'd been sending him sms but he din reply.  Yet he had 'Like' my comments in FB about 5pm.  I really donno what's going on.  I was out till after 12am .. so i drove past his place.  His room light was still on.  :(  I think he is ignoring me.  :(

Sent him sms again after i got home ... still no reply although i din see any activities in FB.  '

Call him this morning ... then i got a reply on sms saying that he is up.  So i called him again and he sounded 'cold' somehow.  Maybe i'm just being sensitive.  :(  But i feel something in my heart.  :(  Has my sms caused this 'coldness'?   :(

I love you babe.  You mean the world to me ... but not the other way round.  Only hoping that i will have your love one day.  But im not very positive about that.  

Hope to feel better again soon.  



Thursday, 17 May 2012

Teacher's Day

Teacher's Day was on Wed 16 May.  I told Nick the night bfore that i want to come see him during work hours ... he gave me this smirk on his face.  sooooooooooooooooo cute.  :)  i kept kissing and hugging him while i told him that.  I said 'can't i just feel like coming to see u?'  :P

So on the day, i posted on his FB page and woke him up as usual.  :)

In the afternoon, i went to pick up my roses (3 red stalks) and went to Secret Recipe to buy him a slice of Chocolate Indulgence cake (they didn't have Chocolate Banana .. sigh)  ... went to his place ... rang him and he asked me to go up.  So i went up with the things behind me ... then gave it to him .... that smile on his face.  :)  Kisssssssssssssssss............. i love u babe.  :)  Gave him a side hug as he thanked me ... and i had to go back to the office.

Before i reach the office, i sms him 'Love you Babe xxxooo'  ... which he replied 'Thank you :)' later.

My heart is with him all the time. i really don know if i can love another.  If only he tells me that he loves me too.

Aries

Just a week ago, Aries added me in FB.  Then we hit it off and spent hours on the phone at night talking to each other.  I was feeling really good.  He was just superbly nice to me and actually quite similar to me ...  And that is the problem to me.  His mood is somewhat like mine ... ie how i get depressed if Nick doesn't reply to me etc.  Hence, it's not a very healthy thing to have.  I know that my own style is not good.  I don wish to have someone to has that same problem with me.  Do you think it is better that way?

He has been in touch with me everyday since last Tue or Wed.  Maybe one of the reason why i ve fallen sick is because of the late nights i had with him.  My body is weak and i couldn't handle it.

I tot i cud just accept him and start forgetting about Nick.  I guess i'm so so wrong.  Just like what Matthew said, i won't love another as long as Nick is still here.  and YES, i do LOVE Nick all so much.

Will see how it goes with Aries.

Sex

On Tuesday 15 May, i made out with Pang.  Room 319 ... he is sooooooooooooooooo good looking with that cheeky smile of his.  The moment i saw him walking towards me, i have an instant liking to him.  8 years younger than me ... not slim but just nice.  I tot i will not do anything with him but i cant help but kiss him ... we kissed a LOT that night ...i think i would have done more but i was suppose to meet up with Nick after that.  I have NO regrets that i had to go becos i m even more in love with Nick that i'd rather go and be with him.

But i really really like Pang ... silly me ... im sure he is just looking for fun only.  It felt good being with him though.  Hugssss....


Fever

Having fever since yesterday.  Tot it got better but it's back again.  Having chills again.  Weak body and a bit of a headache.  :(

Wish that Nick would show more concern to me but he just asked me to go and buy some herbal tea.  I guess that's a type of concern too.

Miss him lots.  Im just so in love with him... and he knows it

sigh ... i need to get better from this 'cold' 

Monday, 7 May 2012

Another man

And im just so sure that he is seeing this other Malay man. :(  I m sure he was skyping with him last night.  Cos i just saw a comment on his fb page from this guy.  He must have played his violin for him over skype last night.   :(  Im so jealous!!!!!!!!  This is not healthy for me. :(

I was thinking of asking him out tonight ... shud i?  i don want to be rejected again. :(

Been giving him wake up calls from 9.00, 9.30, 10.00, 10.30 and now 11.00am.  Im so sad that i can never win his heart.  :(

Time to call him again ... brb

11.00am call and he is still sleepy.  Asked him out tonight and he said maybe after his practise.  Will see how it goes.

My body now is filled with acid... Too much jealousy becos of that comment that i read. :(  He will probably go 'Like' that comment when he wakes up.  Sigh ... i gotta let it be.

... n this is the current story of my life.  sigh...........

My Prayer

Last night i was calmer.  I napped for an hour plus after dinner and i slept well.  Kinda kept me calm for a bit.

Then i decided that i want to sms N and so i did.  He replied saying that he had just finished gym.  I asked if he wanted a wake up call and he said yes to 9.00am.  I told him that i would ring him later yet when i did at 9.42pm he din respond.  i went online and saw him on skype.  he managed to just write 2 lines to me saying that he is on a skype call ... i waited till just about 12am then i decided to go to sleep.  :(  Guess whoever he was skyping to was far more important than me.  :(

And so my prayer goes like this ...

Dear Lord,

Please help me.  If I will never find true love in my life, then please end my life earlier.  I am here for my parents and i will be here for them.  The day my parents pass away, please take my life also for i do not wish to live my life being lonely.  It's just too painful for me.  Please don't torture me Lord.  :(  I know that i have no rights whatsoever to ask for this kind of things but that's how i feel.  :(

I wish to cry now.  But i can't for some reason.  D seems sincere but i don feel that i can trust him completely yet also.  :(  I don't know.  I have a problem.  I deserve to be alone?

When can i be truly happy again?

A blury day

Spending my day today not knowing what to do with myself.  Just feeling frustrated and depressed.  Been chatting with friends and just like before ... all of them ask me to leave N ... the sooner the better.  :(

I really shud concentrate on Des who loves me and wants me to be his boyfriend.  There will be a future with Des cos he loves me ... and i do like him too.

Last night he said he wants to send me a ring.  WOW!  That's a big step.  I like that idea.  I just hope that he is sincere with me.  I'm just scared.  :(

Going back home for lunch today somehow made me feel a bit better.  Mum is still not that ok ... Dad is still having pain on his penis.  :(  I won't leave them.  If god really loves me, he will have to show me that my love for my parents does pay off in the end.

I really want to cry!!  :(  Why did M leave me?  Why did G leave me years ago??  :(  Even B gave up on me too.  :((((((((((((((((((   Are they all not good enough for me?  Or am i not good enough for them?  Whatever i tried, N would not even get moved by my kindness and love.  i feel like such a failure.  :(

Wish there is someone out there for me.  I m getting older.  I really don wish to die alone. :(

Sunday, 6 May 2012

Early morning

This morning i woke up early.  Couldn't fall back to sleep becos i was thinking of N.

I decided to give him a morning wake up call ... 8.30, 8.45 then 9.00.  Maybe it's just me but i don feel anything there today.  He seemed distant.  Asked him for lunch but he said he needed to bring the OZ friends to the airport.  So there's nothing i can do.

I got all dressed up today... new pants, new belt, new socks ... cos i wanted to feel good ... cos D basically proposed to me last night .. and i shud be thrilled.  yet i let N eat me up!!  :(

I will not contact N again today.  I don know if i can do it but i will try.  so tired of chasing after the rainbow.  soooo pretty yet i can never touch or have it.  my heart breaks again .... again and again ... i may die sooner if this carries on.  :(

anyone out there listening to my pain?  :(

Proposal

Mr Kuantan just kinda proposed to me.  He said he bought a pair of rings sometime ago and now he wish to give one to me cos he loves me.  I think i m going to accept tat and hopefully will help me to be sane again.

it's 1.07am now.  Been looking at N's FB pics.  I really can't feel his love for me at all.  This is hurting me badly!

I wish god can help me get thru this.  N is all that i wanted.  Really ... but he is nothing to me also cos i meant nothing to him.  I'm sure he can see my sms just now but as usual, he chose to ignore it and also my call.  :(

Time for me to sleep now.  Over and out.

May i have sweet dreams and a good night sleep.

Weekend

Good and bad ...

Weekend is always like that these days.  If only i can leave him and forget about him. He said he is has his OZ friends around.  But i just saw in his FB that he had/ate some phyton meat yesterday.  And today i saw a comment from this new guy in his friend list on the pic he posted ... seems like they were together having it.  :(

wanted to talk to him before he goes to bed but i guess he has gone to bed or he is ignoring my calls.  :(

When can i feel better?  When can i get out of this web?

If only i can help myself through this ... yet i feel that i am at the losing end... loving someone sooooo much yet he does not feel that way bout me AT ALL.

all the friends around me have 'given up' on me too.  :(  i feel so alone.  :(

Friday, 4 May 2012

Midnight

It's midnight ... but im not going to sms him.  He must be still out with his OZ visitors.  I don wan to disturb.

I did sms him at 5.44pm to remind him to drink water again but there was no reply....  at 6.48pm i just sms him and told him that i just wanted to talk a bit bfore he goes out with his visitor friends.  just bfore that i rang him 2x but there was no reply.  i guess he was showering and getting ready. ... and yes i was right.  he replied my sms at 6.49pm telling me he was in the shower and just about to leave.  :)  that's good enough for me.  i just acknowledged and told him that we will talk again when there is a chance.  :)

watched 'Avengers' and was sitting beside my favourite man from my office.  i totally enjoyed it... both the movie and the man beside me.  :P   i should write some about him too.  :P

too lazy to write now ... im soooooooooooooooooooooooo sleepy and i miss my babe N.  i love u babe.  hope u r thinking of me too..... i know that's just wishful thinking.  :(  maybe he will.

i wonder what he is doing now.

miss u babe.  good night babe.




Thursday, 3 May 2012

Continuous dreams of him

Just rang him at 9.30am to wake him.  :)  He said he woke up a few times cos  was feeling warm.  But din want to have the aircon on the whole night.  and i told him that i woke up a few times too cos i was dreaming of him and his violin and we were together.

the first time i woke up, i sms him at 2.28am telling him that i love him and told him about my dream.  Kiss!!!  i woke up again a couple more times.  all about him, violin and i together.  :)

he was smiling when i told him about the dreams.  i love u babe.  wishing u a wonderful day!  hugs xxx

What a surprise!

Just when i thought that i won't get a chance to see him last night ..... and i did. :) Can't express how happy i felt.

i sms him at lunch and got a reply. then again after work after my gym .... and he replied and asked me if i wanted to see his new violin. :) He just bought a new violin made by Stefano Trabucchi from Cremona, Italy. Wow! It looks really good and i cud feel how wonderful he felt when he picked it up and played. :) I requested for him to play me a piece and he did. I was as thrilled listening to it as he played it. I'm not musical... hence i do not know which piece he played but i love any piece that he plays for me. :)

It was funny cos i videoed on of the piece, though not complete ... he looked so sexy!!! :) I love everything about him. I simply love him so so much. :) When he finished, he told me not to upload it on youtube or show to anyone. lol!!

Actually when i arrived, he brought me around and showed me to the new block. Looks much better than his current teaching room. I hope to be able to visit again when it's all completed. I brought some vitamins for him too. I want him to stay healthy always. Hugss!!!! Love you babe!

Before we head out, we place the violin in his wardrobe where it hangs. Looks cool too. :) He is just soooo worried about the violin. I can imagine cos it costs so much. But it shud be fine.


.... to be continued

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

About last night

hehehe... here i am again.

oh ... i forgot to mention something.  When he identified my scent last night, i told him that i was wearing HAPPY becos "I am HAPPY to see you again".  :)  I was ecstatic!!! Then i kissed him on his face a couple more times. :)

as for the part during dinner ...  i wanted to add this but i didn't dare.  I wanted to say "If you marry me, i will give everything to you" .... *SLAP*  Wishful thinking again!

then i had my flat white latte and he had his chai latte ... he shared with me and sought my views on the violin case from Dimitri Musafia which he wanted to get for his new violin. He was comfortable sharing me his facebook page contents also.  WOW!!! Thank you so much babe.  Kissssssssssss........

it was just a wonderful and happy night.  When i drove him home, we sat and chatted in the car until 11.45pm. Kissed him on his cheek and neck a few times and bid him good night.  Got home and rang him again at 11.55pm.  Hugs and kisses for you babe.

He will have friends from Australia coming to visit from Friday till Sunday. So i will not be able to see or hear much from him.  :(    But will wait for Monday to come when i can meet him again.

I miss you babe.


Last night

Last night we went out.  Initially we were suppose to meet after his gym session at 8.30pm.  I was suppose to pick him up at 9.45pm from the gym.

So i decided to go to gym also.  So i worked out at my gym until 6.30pm. Got home and showered and got an sms from him at 7.16pm telling me that he will skip gym as he had a KILLER headache.  Poor babe ... so i rang him up to check if he was ok.  I tot he was going to cancel on me but he said he just din feel like going to the gym and wud still wanna go out with me.  He was in his car then ... just had a haircut and was about to go home.

I went to pick him up just after 7.45pm.  Feeling very happy and excited as always.  Everytime i see him, i feel like i'm falling in love all over again. Is this normal?  I am just sooo SOOOOOO in love with him.  I was wearing HAPPY from Clinique ... and the moment he got into my car, i kissed his cheek and neck and he said "You are wearing Happy".  :)  I'm thrilled that he noticed.  :)  Kissssssssss.....

Drove him to have the chinese medicated tea drink for his headache and bought some Panadol.  Then we went to have dinner.

He told me about his new violin and case and although i just 'talk' about it, i meant what i had said.  I told him that if i can, i would set up a music school too and i would employ him for double his current salary ..  and i told him this "You can have all that you want cos i totally adore you".  He smiled happily after hearing that.  Such a sweet smile.  Kiss!!

Oops. Lunch time!!  Update again soon.

12.22pm

Wakey Wakey

Rang again at 9.45am.  He still wants to sleep.  hehehe... that's just normal for my babe.  So he suggested to wake up at 10.00am, which was the time i suggested initially.  :P

He text me at 9.55am saying that he is up. :)  So i rang him and talked for a short bit.  Love him to bits.  Kiss!!

Will miss him for lunch today as he is having lunch with his colleague.  Don't know when i can see him again.  Hugs!!  Love u babe.

Morning call

Rang him again at 9.30am.  He wanted to sleep some more.  :)  Just so cute.  Wish I can just kiss him and hold him while he sleeps.  That would be heaven.  I love you babe...

Here goes ...

And the story of my life will start on this day Thursday 3 May 2012